I’ve been travelling quite a bit these past few weeks. On the very day that school was dismissed for the year (June 11) I caught a plane to Hawaii to see my folks for a little over two weeks. It was a nice break from the stress of the past year, although I often succumbed to the temptation of lethargy towards the end of my stay. It was also very nice to see my old parish again and sing with the choir.

Coming back on July 1st, I had little time to prepare for my next four-week trip in the eastern part of these United States. On the night of July 4th (St. John’s feast day) I caught a red-eye to Philadelphia, with a transfer to Syracuse, New York in order to go to Holy Trinity Monastery in Jordanville, where I am presently located. I’m spending two weeks here learning the ins and outs of church music. It’s a wonderful program: not only has my reading of Church Slavonic improved dramatically, I also feel three times as better a singer than I was just a week or so ago. If you sing in an Orthodox choir. I highly suggest this program!

Well, I have several more weeks to go until my travels end. I would write more, but I ought to attend to more pressing concerns. Until then!

Ah, and also to all of my Old Calendar friends: S’Prazdnikom!

I’m not sure what to make of this advertisement for a conference in Oklahoma City. While it goes without saying that I think that the people behind this “Try Orthodoxy” campaign have good intentions, I wonder if this is the correct approach to take. Putting aside the warm-and-fuzzy tone, I don’t think that a conference (which appeals to the mind) is the best way to introduce one to Orthodoxy (which is centered in the heart). Anyone with access to the Internet can find out information about the Orthodox Church as well as all the major arguments for its truth. But faith is the product of grace, not arguments. And this grace is produced by love and prayer.

I believe that the revival of Orthodoxy in America will not come about as a result of fancy ad campaigns. The sapling planted by the Church is watered by the good works of the faithful, and tended by excellent pastors. Perhaps we need another Chrysostom that will eloquently put forth the witness of Orthodoxy, as well as sponsor works of love both in the spiritual realm and in the world. May God grant us such as saint!

This is an ambitious list, but I hope to get at least four of these books done during the summer. As I read, I will post my thoughts on this blog.

Dickens
A Tale of Two Cities

Dillard
The Living

Dostoevsky
The Idiot

Endo
Silence

Gogol
Dead Souls

Greene
The Power and the Glory

Martel
The Life of Pi

Solzhenitsyn
One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovitch

Today was the penultimate day of school, and several hours ago I was walking home with a heavy bag and a stack of books under the crook of my arm. My thoughts wandered to the errands of the afternoon: returning books, paying fines, getting ready for tonight’s promotional ceremonies—when suddenly, in between Balboa and Cabrillo, I was stopped by a voice: “Excuse me, sir.”

I did the natural response, which was to turn around and listen to what this man, who was apparently working on his car outside, had to say. “Excuse me, but you dropped something.” “Excuse me, what time is it?” were among the sundry phrases I expected, but what he actually said, “Excuse me, you know that this is all superstition, right? That there is no God?” of course surprised me.

Being quite taken aback, I did not know how to respond for several seconds. The man looked quite older than me—perhaps past 50—and his time-worn appearance and the authoritative tone in which he said “You know that this is all superstition, right?” made him look like quite the confident American. My first internal response was that of surprise, not merely because of the “question” but because I did not have any obvious external indication of my faith. In my stack of books there was a very slim and unnoticeable work on repentance; the only other indication would have been a CD-R copy of the Service to St. Necktarios [sic] that I was holding with my index finger.

Whatever the case, I wasn’t in the mood for an argument, and my interlocutor’s demeanor did not show any curiosity or willingness to be persuaded on his part.

So, I went with my instincts: I crossed myself and said to him, “God bless you.” As I was walking away, the man shouted to me, “Which God? Zeus? There are thousands of gods…” I turned and made the sign of the cross upon him and the man with him, saying, “May the Lord bless you and keep you.” Perhaps that was a bit overkill, but it seemed a good idea at the time. The man continued on his atheistical spiel while I went on my way.

Perhaps if I was more interested in rational argument or even more bellicose in character, I would have thrown my books down and engaged in a no-holds-barred syllogistic battle with the infidel. Perhaps if had a more irenic and mystical character, I would have posed a paradoxical word to the man to awaken him from his dogmatic slumber. But somehow I would doubt that any sort of rational or mystical posturing would have convinced him. I am reminded of the Athonite Elder who, when he was confronted by an unbeliever to produce some kind of proof of the Orthodox Faith, simply said “No” and walked away. I guess I did the same thing, sort of.

Much has happened in the year since I last posted. I don’t have the time to go into detail about my misadventures in teaching but suffice it to say for now that I will be pursuing a different line of work next year. I’m going to post here as often as possible in order to gather my thoughts and bounce them off the squash court of cyberspace.

Tomorrow will make it two weeks since I moved to San Francisco. Quite a lot has happened within a fortnight: St. John’s feast day, my trips around the City, a brief visit to Berkeley, a pilgrimage to Santa Rosa for Sts. Peter and Paul, the most beautiful wedding I have ever seen, and finally my current trip to Sacramento for teacher training. And there’s more! A planned pilgrimage to Platina is in the works; I get to see the charred ring of ash surrounding the God-preserved monastery myself. Once I get my mind settled I will make a detailed report. Until then, God keep you!

Here are some of my inchoate thoughts on Pentecost. Obviously they shouldn’t be taken as authoritative by anyone.

For a very long time I wondered why Jesus had to ascend into Heaven in order to send the Holy Spirit. Why couldn’t He have stayed on earth with His apostles? It would’ve made it a lot easier for the Church. If anyone tried to persecute Christians, Jesus could’ve come up and showed His wounds and said “Here, see? I’m alive!”

Yes, if Jesus stayed with us we could’ve achieved worldly glory. But we wouldn’t have had the Holy Spirit, because according to the Gospel today, Jesus had “not yet been glorified.” Our Lord was glorified through His Cross and Resurrection, yes, but this glorification was not complete until He ascended to the Father. Through His resurrection, death was defeated and human nature was restored to its original state, but it was not enough. Human nature had to be glorified, it had to be deified. And thus through Christ’s Ascension human nature becomes deified, at least potentially so, allowing for us to receive the Holy Spirit. As someone raised with a Western mindset, focusing on Christ’s crucifixion and resurrection, Pentecost made no sense. But now, as an Orthodox, it makes complete sense to me. Hopefully I will go beyond mere words, and be made worthy of the deifying power of the Holy Spirit.

O Heavenly King, the Comforter, the Spirit of Truth, Who art everywhere and fillest all things, treasury of Blessings, and Giver of Life, come and abide in us and cleanse us from every impurity and save our souls, O Good One.

Groan after you have sinned, not because you are to be punished (for this is nothing), but because you have offended your Master, one so gentle, one so kind, one Who loves you so much and longs for your salvation as to have given even His Son for you. On account of this, groan.

–St. John Chrysostom

No one would be an idolater if we were true Christians: if we kept Christ’s commandments if we are wronged and our property is stolen; if we blessed if we are abused; if we did good when we suffered hardships. No one would be such a brute, that he would not hasten to piety if we kept this approach.

–St. John Chrysostom, quoted in “Witness to the Ethos of Orthodoxy or Syncretistic Coexistence?” published by the Cyprianite Synod in Resistance.

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